Horses Run Wild & Free

There is an important difference between dwelling in misery and understanding that on the path of healing things will come up that sometimes cause us to feel the old emotions and patterns that we are working on letting go.

There is great power in honoring the reality of our current emotions – not feeding them or making them worse but simply recognizing that this is what has arisen in this present moment and that this will also change. When we create this space within ourselves – a space of calmness that is undisturbed by the storm – the storm tends to pass more quickly.

Practicing such profound honesty within ourselves helps in all facets of internal and external life – there is no real freedom without honesty, and without honesty, there can be no peace of mind.

Healing ourselves isn’t about constantly feeling bliss; being attached to bliss is a bondage of its own. Trying to force ourselves to be happy is counterproductive, because it suppresses the sometimes tough reality of the moment, pushing it back within the depths of our being, instead of allowing it to arise and release.

– Yung Pueblo, Inward

New Moon in Cancer with my 17th of 100 Days of Affirmation.

New Moon in Cancer // BUT FIRST from a year ago… 

It has been a whole year since I attempted my first Personal Manifesto. After looking back at last years July New Moon post I have gotten inspired to REFLECT and TWEAK my living personal manifesto. You can find MY WARM UP QUESTIONS HERE and HERE and then my PERSONAL MANIFESTO HERE from last year.

If you are inspired to write one yourself check out last years blog entry on creating a personal manifesto HERE!!

ALRIGHT…so let’s reflect for two secs…and then we will get to the MOON!

Hum…I’ve lived up to it better than I thought I would. I have been doing yoga nearly everyday with an unlimited yoga membership…I have started doing me by way of making what I want to eat when I want to eat. I’ve put love first in everything that I do. I PASSED my pediatric echo registry ON THE FIRST TRY! I have been hit and miss on the writing “everyday” and the blogging BUT I did start a little fiction story last October….I’m working on it occasionally…I should really reserve time to it everyday…but you know, LIFE. I haven’t painted or drawn much…BUT I PLAN to start again on my trip to the mountains next week. Now that I have passed my registry I don’t have anything to worry about so art and writing should come more freely. FREEDOM….aaah that. Yeeah, I’m still working on that. Told you that one was the hardest…although I do feel like I am more free the more I do me….so there is that.


The moon is in Cancer, the Crab, tonight…time for a new beginning and a new intention. Steven Forrest had the perfect analogy to this Zodical Sign in his book The Inner Sky…he talked about how the Crab must build a shell to survive. Within the Crab’s shell is where the transformative work takes place. It is where you grow. Where you do the internal work. Once you’ve nurtured yourself…and grown too big to fit in your old shell…you must shed the old for the new. Molting. Shed. NEW.

Which made me think about our structure…our bones…they are constantly changing….every seven years we have a new set of bones. We are constantly changing…root down and flow with that.

So tonight….think about internal change. Have you been doing the internal work? Have you lived up to your manifesto? Have you served yourself good? Make it an intention to do that. For the next couple of days think about your intention and maybe tweak an old personal manifesto or write a new one!

Cancer Key Words:

Water: “I am rooted, but I FLOW.” -Virginia Woolf

Nurture: Cancer is like a nurturing Mother…just be careful not to be TOO overbearing.

Internal Work: That means…listen to what your soul has to say and do the internal work to connect to your soul. Pray. Connect to God. Connect. Connect. Connect.

Personal Manifesto: WRITE ONE! There is no time limit…just answer the warm up questions HERE if anything!

Love & Moonlight,


PS. “I am rooted, but I flow.” -Virginia Woolf was my 17 of 100 Days of Affirmation entry!




Warm it up Kelly…

To hold myself accountable and to express myself in the greatest way I know…here are the rest of my answers to the personal manifesto prompt/warm up questions from HERE!!!

2. I absolutely love that I am…

  • Intuitive
  • Creative
  • Compassionate
  • Ambitious
  • Free spirited

3. The things I want to work on…

  • Exercise…I’ve been doing yoga here and there, but never really on a consistent basis. So I’ve started a 30 days of yoga challenge in hopes to MAKE myself take the time to do it…when the 30 days is up, I may sign up for unlimited monthly yoga…or just keep googling youtube videos…either way I WANT TO DO YOGA ERRRYDAY! Not just because it’s “cool”…but because it makes me feel really really really good. (minus the chanting stuff…that part doesn’t really resonate with me…but I like the movement, breaths, and meditation…and I like mantras)…okay okay…moving along
  • Writing…I want to write everyday. I like the idea of writing in a journal…and I do that occasionally…I’d like to do it everyday….just something small everyday…handwritten. But I also like to type…because typing keeps up with my brain and it doesn’t cramp up my hand.
  • Blogging…Dude, I wish I could blog everyday…and I try hard most days to get something out…but then I get caught up at home…or at work…and then just get lazy and tired…I want to stop that and post meaningful and personal things more!
  • Freedom…that’s a HARD one. A continuous struggle…this summer I’ve been trying to write more about my intentions in life…I’ll be in Iceland in August for a bit where I hope to SIT. RELAX. AND CLEAR MY HEAD…to allow my inner truth on what freedom means to me…
  • Guts…I need them…Listening to my heart sounds like a great idea!

4. Top 5 Heroes…in no particular order…

  • Anne of Green Gables…because who wouldn’t want a scope of the imagination? Dreamy and thoughtful.
  • Beatrix Potter…because she painted and wrote children’s books AND busted her butt to get them published without an agent…plus she lived a magical life with a garden, on her own…for a very long time…before she married late in life.
  • Ida Rentoul Outhwaite…because she is my favorite Australian artist.
  • Jes Allen…current yogi crush…her style is funky fresh.
  • The “Authorities”…My Mom and Dad…God…and my Boss. My parents for giving me everything I need and shaping me into the woman I am today…God for bringing me into this world and giving me a grand life…and my boss who is a constant inspiration on building empires ON YOUR OWN, from ground up, and giving me the everyday opportunity to serve the population.

5. Qualities…compassionate, caring, loving, receptive, ambitious, perseverance, adaptability, hard working, free spirited, dependable, trustworthy, creative, open.

6. The person I want to be right now…I want to be my own person. I want to listen to my deepest life pulls…I want to answer to life on my own. I want to be the best mom. I want to be loving and compassionate…and I want to do yoga everyday…I want to paint and draw and write whenever I feel like it…without worrying about spending some solitude. I want to learn how to surf…and go to the beach more…I want to make whatever I want to eat…and eat it…at whatever time I want to…I WANT TO BE MY OWN ALCHEMIST.

7. I want to be remembered as…Loving. Number one! Loving…I want my girls to remember me as a loving, caring, and compassionate mom who is strong willed. I want them to think of me as their go to…there shoulder to cry on…their advice giver…a listener. I want to be remembered as a boost of confidence in other peoples lives…I want them to know that I really DO CARE…it’s easy to see that in the world we live in that everyone really doesn’t care what the other is doing or their story…but I am interested. I’m interested in what you have to say…what you are feeling…and if I can help. I honest to God feel that way…everyone is walking their own path…and everyone has something unique to offer this world….and I’m interested. I like listening…

8. List the things you are waiting for...freedom. I haven’t quite figured that out yet….but I do feel held down…and it doesn’t feel good. I’m going to hold this one in if you don’t mind. This is ginormous.

9. My doubts…that I’m not good enough, I should remind myself everyday THAT I AM GOOD ENOUGH…because I am. Resentment…I don’t want anyone (ahem, husband) to resent me or me resenting anyone else, that never feels good.

10. Write….”I am the sea…and nobody owns me.” -Pippi Longstocking ten times..

I am the sea…and nobody owns me.

I am the sea…and nobody owns me.

I am the sea…and nobody owns me.

I am the sea…and nobody owns me.

I am the sea…and nobody owns me.

I am the sea…and nobody owns me.

I am the sea…and nobody owns me.

I am the sea…and nobody owns me.

I am the sea…and nobody owns me.

I am the sea…and nobody owns me.

🙂 – Kelly

My Personal Manifesto | The Warm Up | Question One

My Personal Manifesto- The Warm Up.

Question Number One: From HERE 

I imagine myself sitting on the back porch…thinking of the right words to say. How do I really see myself? My lizard brain is being a butt right now. It’s whispering honeyed words of self-doubt in my ear…

ew, I just felt it’s tongue.

Self-doubt is such a blah. I get in moods where I don’t think I’m good enough, or smart enough, or fast enough, or creative enough…and I let that lizard brain get to me sometimes. I want that to stop. I want to take that lizard brain and kick it’s …..tail.

What I really see deep down is a very sensitive, well mannered, intuitive young woman who is begging herself to take that silk scarf from her mouth and tell the world what she is made of…what her mind is made of…her ideas…thoughts…feelings…uh, let’s let her talk now…thank you!

As if that wasn’t me just talking right now…

Okay okay…I’m rolling my eyes at myself.

I am…my own worst enemy. But I’m working on that. HARD. The hardest thing I want to change in my life is that self-doubt and self-sabotage. I don’t like it.

What I do love about myself is that I am very intuitive…I have a pretty good idea of what is happening around me, to me, and to others. I also love that I’m a perpetual learner…and it has served me well. Must be that Virgo Sun in me. I also love that I am creative…at least I tell myself that! (Shut up lizard.) I AM creative. I love to draw, write, paint, take photographs…express myself visually. I am kind, gentle, quite….and I am the best secret keeper. I listen, I give, I share, I love. I’m a best friend. The best mom. A sister. A daughter. I may seem boring, BUT I AM NOT…when you get to know me. I’m an introvert to the max…but I also can get wild and funny. I feel my best when I can make others laugh or get inspired. Ha…Pisces rising! What UP!? I’m also very caring and emotional and I truly do wear my heart on my sleeve. I feel other peoples pain and it makes me sad. I wish sometimes I could be Buddah and EAT up all that pain so you don’t have to feel it. I thank that Pisces in me that gives me compassion..and I thank God. I’m also the HARDEST worker you will ever find. I bust my butt at work and I am ambitious…my Capricorn moon streak…

What I really want is to start answering those life calls.

Oh and I AM THE QUEEN. Boom.

Love & Moon Light,


New Moon “Personal Manifesto” Supplies List and Prompt/Warm Up Questions

A NEW MOON is coming up on July 16th, 2015…

For the next Moon cycle we are going to focus on developing and writing a PERSONAL MANIFESTO…below you will find a description of a personal manifesto, along with, a supplies list and some prompt/warm up questions.


A personal manifesto is a written declaration of who you are, what you are all about, and who you want to be. It is a declaration to yourself and to the world…it is a promise to yourself to live the life YOU WANT.

In preparation for writing one I’ve come up with a list of supplies and some prompt/warm up questions to get you to start thinking. Start to answer the questions before the next new moon…don’t worry too much about grammar at this point….just answer the questions from your gut…as the moon is waning, try to cultivate a reflective state of mind. When the new moon gets here we are going to write our first draft of our personal manifesto. Keep in mind it will be a first draft…a personal manifesto is going to be rewritten, revised, and tweaked several times before you feel it just perfect.

Supplies List For your Personal Manifesto:

JOURNAL and a pen


Computer, if you prefer typing instead of writing.

And a candle if you want to set the mood!

Prompt/Warm Up Questions:

1. Imagine yourself and describe what you see. Really evaluate yourself…the good, the bad…the things you want to work on. Write this as long or as short as you want. Write it in paragraph format…but don’t get too caught up on grammar at this point. Just let it all out.

2. As you are still imagining yourself list the top 5 things that you absolutely LOVE about yourself. It can be one word…a sentence…or a couple of sentences for each one. If you have more than 5 or less than 5…that is okay too. 5 is a suggestion.

3. With the same frame of mind list 5 things you want to improve on in your life: The things you don’t like as much but want to change. Use the same format as question #2…but then add next to each item a suggestion on how to change it. Then think about how those things have positively shaped part of you.

4. List your top 5 heroes. They can be real people or fictitious characters. Beside each hero describe their personality and the things you like about them.

5. List the qualities that you have that are the same as your top 5 heroes. And then list the qualities you want to cultivate. The qualities can be from ANYTHING or ANYONE. List your ideas of good qualities in a person.

6. Describe the person you want to be RIGHT NOW. Right now in this moment…who do you want to be? Write it down.

7. Describe and write down how you want to be remembered. If you are a parent, a friend, a daughter, a son, a grandparent, a sister, a brother….how do you want your family and friends to describe you? Write it down.

8. List all the things you are waiting for. Are these things that you feel you need to have happen before you can “be happy”? If so, why? Write down what you think is holding you back. Now think about how that makes you feel. We are going to turn that around!

9. List any doubts you may have. Next to each describe why you have that doubt. Then next to that…write down what you could do about that doubt to make it go away.

10. Write the following quote by Pippi Longstocking TEN TIMES:

“I am the sea…and nobody owns me.”


Take the next 4 nights to answer these prompt/warm up questions…then on the 5th night, when the moon is new, we will begin writing the first draft of our personal manifesto!

Love & Moon Light,