New Bedside Reads

New Bedside Reads… Accompanied by Grandpa Guarino’s Jesus and St. Anne.

I’m super excited about all of these!

Meggan Watterson is one of my favorite authors and Theologists! I read Mary Magdalene Revealed and it has been my top favorite adulthood read! And so I am sure Reveal with be just as good!

Started Greenlights by Matthew McConaughey earlier this week! I love a good memoir type book! Although he calls his book more of an “Approach Book” or “Play book”… I feel like there will be, and already are from what I’ve already read, some really good insights to life.

The last two books are guilty pleasures… love stories by Beatriz Williams and Colleen Hoover… who doesn’t LOVE a good love story?

And Jerry Seinfeld… well… he reminds me of my dad… and laughing.., so naturally I picked it up!

New Gems 💎

A bunch of random thoughts:

The year started off with high energies and intentions…

coupled with tumultuous happenings beyond our earthly control…

In the midst of grieving… silence sometimes is the only mode…

Tears come and go… but the release is sweet…

I’m not entirely sure what to think anymore…

Grieving a friend… then learning news that your sister has breast cancer…

For what it’s worth… I feel hopeful for my sister… her, grieving over the loss of her breasts in a double mastectomy this past Monday…

The road is long… and there is still so much to get through…

A witness to loss… yet, an advocate for the good that comes with…

There is good in everything… I know this to be true…

I bought these new gems because I thought they were pretty… they are pretty…

Druzy quartz… for positivity and healing…

To strengthen the spirit… to amplify the body’s natural healing…

Relieving anxieties… and promoting positivity…

Xo, Kel

Debra Ann

It’s been a week and two days since you’ve been gone… and it still feels so very unreal. I keep thinking you’ll walk through the door at work… with your hair and nails done… and your earrings…. you’d probably beat my ass for posting this pic of you without your hair done… but I would have told you you looked pretty regardless! I always thought it was magical you went on Fridays to get your hair done. But I post this pic… bc it’s of me and you, and we sent this snap to my mom in Virginia so that you could say hey to her. You two… the Scorpio Birthday buds… 🦂 Debra, I love you so much… and I know you know that… bc we told each other nearly every day “I love you.” My heart is sad. I lost one of my most favorite coworkers of all times. I remember the day you came in for your interview and I fell in love with you immediately. I knew in my heart that we needed you. I still need you. Ten years I had the pleasure of knowing you. Ten years your smile and sassiness lit up the office. Outreaches with you were always my favorite… you’d always start the day saying “Let’s get it poppin”… and we’d bust our asses seeing a million patients… we’d go to get food after and you’d always want your hamburger or sandwich or chicken sandwich cut in half. I always laughed at your detailed orders. And your gospel music in the morning… you were such a devoted gospel singer for over 25 years and your heart was devoted to Jesus. I feel okay and at peace to know that you are finally in your righteous place in Heaven with your precious Lord Jesus. Life here on Earth will miss you like fucking crazy. I love you Debra Ann. Come visit me in spirit form! 😘

Change is the ONLY constant.

Change is the only constant.

When you are in the midst of an awakening you start to question things…

Popular beliefs start to show their chin hairs… and the things you were once told to believe will all of a sudden not make sense anymore.

When you let go of who you thought you should be… you begin to realize who you really are.

It’s fuggin’ painful at times… and your greatest fear will be disappointing others because it has been beat into your head that you should be a certain way…

Deep down you know that you are changing… and the surrender to that change is going to be BIG & SCARY… but ohhh so worth it.

A bit of comforting advice… It’s actually not as scary as you think it will be.

You’ll wake up one morning with the will to live life on the next level… an up-level…

And you will no longer say… that’s the way we have always done it…

Dream a Little Dream

Painting by Rafał Olbiński

I love dreaming. Sometimes I have lucid dreams that feel so real… as if they are actually happening… Where time, space, and all of my senses are awake but I’m dreaming.

The last time I had a lucid dream I was walking through a store that had big bulky sweaters to buy. Racks and racks of them. When I realized that I was lucid dreaming… I stepped into the role to try and take advantage of my lucid dreaming. In the dream I put my baby down and I told myself to go to the register to buy a winning lottery ticket… and when I got to the register I couldn’t lucid dream… it stopped. So I had to go back to the racks of sweaters where I could then again lucid dream. I tried once more to go get a lottery ticket and my lucid dream stopped. I could not make the lottery ticket work.

Anyways… I looked up the meaning behind dreaming of sweaters…

I found a site that said if you dream about buying fashionable sweaters (which was what I was doing) that it was a way of saying you needed to ask for help from your friends and family in difficult situations, even when you don’t want to. And that is sooooo true for me! I hate asking for help… but maybe sometimes I should.

AND IN THE SAME paragraph it said if you were dreaming about an old stretched out sweater that this was about financial problems and that you shouldn’t buy a LOTTERY TICKET, because you wouldn’t win anyways. Whaaaaat?! Isn’t that weird? Kind of eerie! Never thought those two things would actually be in the same interpretation.

Anyways… I could go on and on about my weird ass dreams… crazy thing is… my name doppelgänger Kelly Walden is actually a dream analyzer. Even weirder!