New Moon in Virgo/Libra. Peace Day. Last Day of Summer. First Day of Fall. 

Anew…

Mmmmm… when you’re at the cusp of another breakthrough… it feels pretty good. A couple weeks ago my Mom asked if I could come visit her in Virginia for the Fall Equinox… I checked my work calendar… and I was free… I even had that Friday off… so excitedly I planned to make a trip up to see my Mom, Dad, Brother (and his sweet new girl friend…I have only seen pictures and snap chat videos, but she strikes me as a kind soul… sometimes you can just look at someone and know… its in the eyes), and of course my puppy sister Jenny. I even took a vacation day yesterday so that I could spend the day driving and have a full Friday, Saturday, and most of Sunday visiting…. And here I am… at my moms kitchen table… drinking chilled chocolate almond iced coffee…

But getting back to the early part of this week and yesterday…. whoever said marriages were easy is secretly a liar… nothing is ever perfect… it is true… even when you love someone soooo much and you are the perfect pair… there is always bound to be SOMETHING that gets on your nerves… this week was one of those weeks… it hasn’t been particularly the greatest… so I am glad I got to get away… by myself… on a solo trip…

All I need is to clear my head…

So on the way here yesterday I finished listening to the entire book White Hot Truth: Clarity for keeping it real on your spiritual path – from one seeker to another By Danielle LaPorte. And let me tell you… it has helped me get back to that place where I feel spiritually connected to myself, my Divine Feminine, and God… as a spiritual seeker I have gone through WAVES… sometimes BIG ones… of being connected and then feeling lost in the ocean somewhere… But I’m so thankful for that book… because it REMINDED me of that JOY I get when I feel so connected… and it came at the right time… This year, to say the least, has been a CRAZY… There have been SO many changes I was having a hard time keeping up… I started to loose myself in all the chaos and I began to feel heavily not connected… I had a million people needing my attention and I gave and gave and gave until I had a melt down… being a working mom is HARD… I had to let people know that I WAS TIRED… really overwhelmed… and now… I’m starting to get back to me… taking care of myself and my spiritual needs… I am taking THIS time here in Virginia to get grounded again… listen to what God has to say and get back on track…

Yesterday was coincidentally the last day of Summer, Peace Day, and a New Moon… so A LOT OF ENERGY was floating around… I had an almost 9 hour drive to listen to my book, listen to my thoughts, listen to Michael Jackson and David Bowie… and just breathe. So on the last day of Summer I thought about the early part of the year and decided that NOW is the time to be GRATEFUL (as always, no matter the time, be grateful) and make a pact with myself to get reconnected… I set that new moon intention and I’m feeling into it…

NEW MOON in Virgo/Libra…

So we are slowly coming to the end of the Virgo Season in the sun sky… and what a perfect time to have a New Moon in Virgo and Libra… With these two signs and the Virgo sun there are some things that we can learn from them… VIRGO, the healer, the mother…the nurturer… it reminds me to take time to take care of myself and the ones around me… for me, I have been spending so much time taking care of others here lately that I neglected myself… so I am devoting this weekend to take care of myself… because YOU have to be well to take care of others… I am looking forward to this revitalizing boost! And then LIBRA, the scales… FINDING BALANCE…. oh gracious RIGHT…. finding that balance between taking care of yourself and others… it’s tricky… and hard at times… but I got this… BALANCE, the Sky above, Earth below, and PEACE WITHIN…

So now I am here on this First day of Fall… and I am excited! I snuggled my brother who I hadn’t seen in a while… sat in the “Mom room” with Jenny and snuggled her… I have already gone on a walk… witnessed God’s great Earth…the trees, the sun… grass and plants… I am about to finish up drinking my chilled coffee and finish my mustard puff pastry… and then do some yoga… maybe sip on some Rose… and then later I’ll take a stroll in Downtown Manassas with my mom…

This…. is going to be a good season!

Love & Moonlight,

Kelly

P.S. Fall is my FAVORITE season… hands down!

Fly.


Fly. Okay then…I will. 

This past New Moon fell on December 29th…in the midst of Mercury in retrograde. The day before I spent the afternoon on Tybee at the beach by myself. What I needed was to be loved. The trouble with my own loving kindness is that I’ve offered it up…many times. And there have been times when I have offered up my love and kindness only to find that it was never enough. Those times hurt the most…it is then when I have suffered from my own kindness the most. But I sat there…felt sad for lost friendships and lost loves…collected some sea shells and put them in a rosary pouch along with a rosary that some lady gave to my oldest daughter at my grandpas funeral…

And that night, when I got together with my moon goddess friends, I balled… crying like a baby when I blindly drew my goddess card for the lunar month…I drew Mary Magdalene. She came to me when I needed it…for two reasons. One for receiving unconditional love and one for remembering my Grandpa…two unrelated happenings. To make things clear…my Grandpa gave me nothing but unconditional love and the meaning of this card represents two separate things in my life…

If you don’t believe in the universe and the magic of it all…the synchronicities, the happenings, the reasons for it all, I would hope that this inspires you to do so…this is what it mean for me…

Firstly…Mary Magdalene represent unconditional love…something that I’ve been needing. Unconditional love. Say it again. Unconditional love.

On the card it reads: “Love yourself, others, and every situation – no matter what the outward appearances may be.”

In the book it says: “Don’t worry what others think or say. Heal this situation with love. Send love to those who have hurt or misjudged you. Forgive yourself for what you think you’ve done or not done. Release old unforgiveness toward others to help yourself heal and move on.”

Something I needed to hear and feel. Unconditional love. Say it again. Unconditional Love. So I suppose the only thing left to do is fly…heal and move on.

I cried…again thinking about lost friendships and lost loves…

And then secondly…I thought about my grandpa and this strange pull I’ve been feeling to go to church at St. Anne’s Catholic church…

Then today on the way home from Florida I propped up my Mary Magdalene card on my dash board..snapped a pic of her and sent it to my goddess friends saying “Mary and Me”…and then thought of my grandpa again.

He was a devoted Catholic until the day he passed away…I was never raised Catholic, but my Dad was and my Grandpa…And while I’m thinking about him and the Catholic church and Mary Magdalene my dad texts our family group asking how old my Grandpa was when he passed away…strange that he texted it instead of just asking my mom next to him…but he asked that question in a group message…another sign.

My grandpa was 78 when he passed away…he waited for me to get to the hospital before he did…I watched him slip away by myself…my parents were living in another state at the time and were back and forth while my grandpa was in and out of the hospital. It all happened so fast…I just cried while they worked on him…while one of the doctors was saying “This wasn’t supposed to happen like this.” But he was ready…he was ready to go home. They let me hold his hand after they couldn’t revive him and I knew he had already gone. I still think of him every day…and I know he is around me…and I think that he would want me to go to church…and I think that I will.

Love & Moonlight,

Kelly

Moving through things…finding peace…finding unconditional love…flying.

 

 

My Personal Manifesto | The Warm Up | Question One

My Personal Manifesto- The Warm Up.

Question Number One: From HERE 

I imagine myself sitting on the back porch…thinking of the right words to say. How do I really see myself? My lizard brain is being a butt right now. It’s whispering honeyed words of self-doubt in my ear…

ew, I just felt it’s tongue.

Self-doubt is such a blah. I get in moods where I don’t think I’m good enough, or smart enough, or fast enough, or creative enough…and I let that lizard brain get to me sometimes. I want that to stop. I want to take that lizard brain and kick it’s …..tail.

What I really see deep down is a very sensitive, well mannered, intuitive young woman who is begging herself to take that silk scarf from her mouth and tell the world what she is made of…what her mind is made of…her ideas…thoughts…feelings…uh, let’s let her talk now…thank you!

As if that wasn’t me just talking right now…

Okay okay…I’m rolling my eyes at myself.

I am…my own worst enemy. But I’m working on that. HARD. The hardest thing I want to change in my life is that self-doubt and self-sabotage. I don’t like it.

What I do love about myself is that I am very intuitive…I have a pretty good idea of what is happening around me, to me, and to others. I also love that I’m a perpetual learner…and it has served me well. Must be that Virgo Sun in me. I also love that I am creative…at least I tell myself that! (Shut up lizard.) I AM creative. I love to draw, write, paint, take photographs…express myself visually. I am kind, gentle, quite….and I am the best secret keeper. I listen, I give, I share, I love. I’m a best friend. The best mom. A sister. A daughter. I may seem boring, BUT I AM NOT…when you get to know me. I’m an introvert to the max…but I also can get wild and funny. I feel my best when I can make others laugh or get inspired. Ha…Pisces rising! What UP!? I’m also very caring and emotional and I truly do wear my heart on my sleeve. I feel other peoples pain and it makes me sad. I wish sometimes I could be Buddah and EAT up all that pain so you don’t have to feel it. I thank that Pisces in me that gives me compassion..and I thank God. I’m also the HARDEST worker you will ever find. I bust my butt at work and I am ambitious…my Capricorn moon streak…

What I really want is to start answering those life calls.

Oh and I AM THE QUEEN. Boom.

Love & Moon Light,

Kelly